CharlieMC (charliemc) wrote,

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(sigh) I Think I've Been an Unintentional Bitch...


I think I've unintentionally hurt (annoyed?) one of my LJ friends...

I must admit that I'm a 'soft and fuzzy' type of friend (and supporter) to those in my life.

But honestly, I do recognize that being a friend shouldn't be about what naturally works for ME (offering kind thoughts, offering sympathy and/or empathy, trying to compare my life to your life, etc., etc.) -- but rather about what works for YOU!

If saying "(hugs)" (for example) doesn't cut it for you, then clearly I'm not giving the support I hope to!

It's ironic, because I do try hard to be a good friend -- even when I'm really busy in RL and am wrapped up in my own world...

But smothering others can be selfish, too. I do know that.

On that note, I need to go and do (another) load of dishes, cook a couple of dishes for the potluck tomorrow, have some dinner (I actually forgot I hadn't done that!), do some laundry -- and just get myself pulled together. And as I mentioned here, I'm just dead tired. I'd love to be selfish as hell and just go straight to bed. But I promised to provide food for tomorrow -- and I'm not going back on it.

I'm so f-ing allergic right now. I'm sitting here sneezing and itching and going crazy. Shit. My seasonal allergies are kicking in big time in spite of all efforts to avoid them. (This super-fatigue is simply another symptom.) I don't want to go there yet again -- and spend weeks down sick. Hell, I can't go there -- I've got to damn much work to do right now!

Oh -- and that sounds like a plea for sympathy, but it's not. I'm just whining. (smile) I'm sure once I eat and get on top of the cooking I'll be fine. Coffee would be a big help. (Of course, guess what food item got left off our grocery list when we finally went shopping? Yes, we missed both coffee and cat food! That is so not a good thing...)

Getting back to my original post (duh, Charlie!), I need to try harder to be a good friend -- both here at LJ and in RL. It's probably a good excuse that I'm struggling like mad to get on top of my new role as the IT person and webmaster at work -- BUT it's still just an excuse!

Hopefully you guys will forgive me. Sincerely, my heart is in the right place -- even if my actions sometimes fail to be.

Tags: 2007, fatigue, festival, friendship, it-related, livejournal-friends, potluck, prfa, seasonal-allergies, september-2007, webmaster, work

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